I was thinking about where I was- mentally, physically, emotionally- 5 or 6 years ago today, and shaking at my head at the picture of myself. I remember being tossed about my so many ideas, unable to focus, afraid of the changes to come, even if I was going to be directing them myself… it was like the Wild, Wild West back then!
And I wanted to share with you guys, who’ve been following this awesome site for years now, that that is how I felt once upon a time. I felt stuck. I felt incomplete. I felt unsure. And I’m pretty sure everyone feels that way from time to time.
But the first time it happens, boy does it feel like SH%*. It’s like waking up in The Matrix and realizing you’re in a different world, where you’ve got to navigate according to different precepts, and learn as you go, which totally goes against what you absolutely knew to be true before: that you must learn before you act.
But once you conquer that first wave, the rest of the ocean is yours. That’s what I want to tell you. Sure, I was stuck back then, and I’ve become stuck now and again, but I’ve also lived in exciting new cities, made charming, daring friends, and found new love. Living in indiepreneur-HQ Portland, hiking the Great Glen Way, dancing with Haitians, helping prepare a Hawaiian luau- I’ve done them all, and you need to gather your experiences while ye may, too! You get better as you practice; that’s one thing that hasn’t changed.
So if you’re discouraged at this waking-up process, remember this: it’s not the color of the pill you need to worry about, but the thoughts that lead you to the discovery. C-R-I-T-I-C-A-L T-H-I-N-K-I-N-G. Keep it up. And you might want to tell that Margaret of 5 or 6 years ago to do the same.
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